"How to disappear completely" is a personal story about the existential crisis, that I have experienced right after graduation.
I felt that the carefree phase of my life was coming to an end and I was under pressure to make decisions that would directly affect my future.
It was time to sum up my life, to confront my dreams with actual achievements.
I was now forced to leave my comfort zone and take risks. My had was full of dark thoughts and exaggerated threats. This new reality of being “fully adult” confused me completely.
Escape was my strategy. Fear of failure and wrong choices caused me
to withdraw from life and fall into lethargy. I constantly felt hopeless, the only thing I dreamed of was absolute non-existence.